I think Christmas 'done me in'

First, Alex does "Thriller".

I actually had to suppliment last night. I was really frustrated, but there just wasn't anything coming for Alex. I'm glad we stole and accepted formula from the hospital, because otherwise I would not been able to deal with the fussy baby with hand in his mouth sucking furiously.

So today's goal is to drink water every time I feed him, since that *may* be the culprit. I've been worried since I started the mni pills, but hopefully it is something I can fix. Yesterday was a fluster, constantly running, atc. And Alex was a really good boy, so I pushed the envelope- I guess too much for both of us.

It's hard trying to find the happy medium between baby-centered and being able to lead a normal life. I am really happy though that I have such a good baby so an afternoon of errands is possible.

Christmas

was a long furious whirlwind, let me tell you. I don't even remember what all I got because I was more excited about Alex's stuff.

This, I knew about. I had pointed it out to Grandma as a hint, and, well, she got it. It plays music and interacts with baby (he sets off the music by wiggling stuff) and entranced everyone Christmas day playing with it.

Christmas eve he got fun stuff- including a huge teddy bear I have no idea where to put. He got passed aroud early on, and started to get tired. when he fussed, did they let mommy take him? no. They tried to fix it themselves, so he was a mess when they finally let me take him but I quickly got him relaxed and sleeping. So a realtive that was trying to hold him got a crying mess of a baby instead of a happy one, which I wanted to do. Next time, I guess.

He got educational toys, and clothes,including toddler-sized stuff. We still have stuff in the car since yeterday was cook a lot and feed mine and Eric's parents (we had ham and turkey since Eric's mom doesn't eat ham, cinnimon butter gnocchi, sugar carrots, and Grandma's chesy rice along with Hawaiian rolls and chocolate chip cookies for dessert.)

Hopefully we have lots of pictures- Nicole helped take some, ad I still haven't checked the camera yet to upload them all.

I did it

I started another blog, an anonymous one. Since the holidays have been crazy for me, I have been slowly posting. I am going to be working on a list of topics and really get it off the ground maybe after the new year.
I am excited because I'll really be working on my writing skills instead of doing the diary thing like this is ( no prob with that!) but getting people to said blog will be difficult. I'm going to keep looking for similar blogs and posting comments to see if I can generate some traffic:) And, find some good topics.
I'm going to try to keep this one up as well since it has been good for keeping people up with things.

Dang that's huge, oh well. Love.

Alex is really starting to grasp things, like literally, si I am having to start making necklace decisions carefully- mostly, what can be unhooked or pulled over my head easily to separate me from said baby...

To keep things on the less graphic side, I have bled a couple of times since I got my 6 week checkup. The first time, thought it could have been overworked or my period (I'm breastfeeding, so I was wondering how it could be so soon.)

Nope, did again. Figured it was overexertion, and spent two nights after I would take care of Alex crying into my pillow, since it was nighttime and quiet and I was tred and streesses. I spent a lot of time being afraid I would split open on the inside, and it was like it was my worst fear coming true. I was afraid that it was affecting having a baby in the future, that my uterus would risk rupture and be weak... anyway. I called the doctor today, and the RN caklled back and told me to start exercising those muscles.

Yep, they were underused.

WHADO YOU WANT FROM ME!?!

I spent 6 weeks of my life afraid to use any muscles in that area because I was afraid I would split open somehow. The 2 times I use those muscles, I bleed. And you're telling me to exercise.

It made me cry, again. I really hope I don't go through so much emotional terror with my next cesarean, because this is getting to be too much. I am not good with dealing with the fact I have been cut open and sewn back together (stapled too!) and trying to keep it easy for 6 weeks was really hard for independant me. In fact, I can tell you it didn't totally work, which is part of the problem. Eric back at work, everyone sick, I was left to fend for myself.

Body image

Coming into pregnancy I was so excited my hips would grow a little- in the years following my RCC almost-6-pack, my belly has always been a little bigger because, well, I have no hips!

Sadly, even with all of the yoga and chiro and stuff, we are back in the same place. No hips. And now, my belly is bigger, so now my jeans sit lower. I am in constant fear of showing my stretch marks if my shirt isn't long.

I totally feel the little jiggle I have below my belly button and get upset. i don't feel sexy because of it.

Luckily, my man is there to remind me how many months it took to make that belly, and that it will take more thqn the 7 weeks it's had so far to go away.

The 7 weeks feel like a lifetime- I mean, it is for Alex, but I've been through so much, it seems like a year.

A new haircut does make me feel better though...

The tie that binds

It is a constant learning process to figure out how to go out places with Alex on a regular basis. This includes having pacifier, diapers, clean clothes, a bottle if that is an option, etc.
He has to somehow make it into the carseat in that time after eating and pooping but not before he is hungry again.
I have to hopefully get the errand(s) done so that he gets hungry or fussy in the car and not the store, hopefully (haven't nursed in public yet, this will probably happen Monday).
Note to self- nursing in back seat of the Focus is no longer an option, it's way too cramped.
Baby-wearing is a definite yes. Alex fell asleep in Target after eating, and thankfully did not have some big explosive poop like I feared could happen. No one touched him, but many pointed and said "Aaaaawwww... " Mostly little girls. OK, all little girls. He does set off the older women, lol.
Not only planning what all to take, but where. I really wanted to go to Cari's shindig, but cringed at the weather and the risk of having to slam on brakes or other stupidness with Alex in the car. His head control is better, but I want to avoid whiplash or injury to a 7 week old I have miraculously not hurt yet except for dropping something heavy on his eyebrow and leaving a mark (and the hysterical crying that ensued by both of us).
*sigh* I need social time, but I am not as depressed as I was a couple of weeks ago. Course, a couple doses of friends always does that for me (Cari, you rock for coming out last weekend. I wish I really did live closer.)
It's hard knowing there is stuff I'd like to do and I'd just love to drop Alex off and be gone for an afternoon watching a movie at the theatre, but I have made promises that are more important than 'New Moon' (sigh).
Feeding Alex is a promise I made to myself and Eric and, while it's annoying, is also rewarding and not as much of an inconvenience as I thought it would. he doesn't eat ALL the time, he actually is starting to take a longer break at night (last 2 nights he gave me 5 hour stretches of sleep, go Alex!) And doesn't do much except maybe spit up afterwards.
it;'s mostly having my schedule thrown out the window and someone else's ever changing one the new law, so it is a daily task of figuring out what is going on and making it work with what I need to do.
And I am slowly learning how I can make myself independent of Alex for a couple hours here and there, so I will be catching movies in a while:)

I had a good idea

for what to write, but I forgot what it was. If I think of it later, I will, otherwise, my brain is not cooperating with me.

So here is our Christmas card!

preview of Christmas cuteness

Considering a public blog

I like doing this thing, but it's mostly for updating a few people. I'm considering making a public blog, and actually writing it for random people to read. I'd like to keep my writing skills up to date, and photo skills as well- I could document whatever I was talking about, although I would probably do it pretty anonymously.
I even have an idea for the title, it's just deciding wether or not to do it. I started this one mostly to keep people up to date with my and the baby, and that has been done, so I'm not sure what all to do- although I don't know f I'd kill this one or not.
There's lots of things could talk about- what I cooked for dinner, what I'm wearing (clothes are an obsession right now, because looking presentable makes me feel good:) I know the successful ones have an 'angle' but I am not sure if I am thinking it would be a busy blog or not.
Thinking, thinking...

I survived another week

This week has been crazy- since Eric and I share a car, we had to organize borrowing mom's or taking Eric to work this week, since I had a pediatrician appointemnt, a chiropractor appointment and lunch with the girls all on different days.

All three went fine.

Alex is already 2 feet long! He also weighs over 11 pounds. Crazy. It's true when they say they will never be that way again... I try to remember how small he was in the hospital... He's grown so much more into his face though, what a cutie!

Today for lunch I made an effort to get cute. I don't get out, but I always try to get brushed and decent in the morning for the day. Today I wanted to be a little cute, like the fashion blog I like to check out, Adored Austin . I wore purple tights, leopard ballet flats, and a dress with a black belt. I adore the belted look, it looks good. I have a couple dresses I hadn't worn yet belted with my big belt, so today I tried my denim one. Score:) And heart- shaped sunglasses, but that was nmot intentional. Couldn't find my regular ones. I've had many items misplaced in the chaos right before and after Alex came- I'm still finding random items in places because I can't remember where I put them three weeks before.

Don't have plans for this weekend except getting Christmas pics done so I can work on Xmas cards. I have big plans, let's see if I can get them done.

Some photos

I'm planning on shooting more this week. It's a little exhausting for both of us, not having an assistant except Daisy who is on baby boycott right now...

I'm trying to get ready for Christmas cards, lol.

Swooping in at the nick of time

This was my first week alone. Now, since the hospital, I've had a lot of alone time- Eric working on his truck as well as being with Alex and I, and everyone else being sick and staying away. It's been a rough 4 weeks.
I can't complain too much- I do have an easygoing baby. But it has been overwhelming being at some one's beck and call at least once every three hours to eat, let alone all of the other things that Alex needs.
Last night was rough- Alex kept eating and fussing until midnight, and I had tried everything I could, as calmly as possible, to get him to sleep (Eric coming in and picking him up did the trick at 12:30- at 4, it was putting him on my chest. Again, after trying that an hour ago. Bleah.)
I was so wound up last night, I couldn't sleep once I got the chance, so I racked in a good three hours. Total. Up at 8, early as usual (yes, I know it's not that early. But I don't really sleep in till 9 regardless, it gets too light.)
Eric was really a saving grace last night and this morning- he made breakfast, so I actually got some before 11. Which is important, I have to eat so I can make breakfast/lunch/dinner for someone special.

Sleep

is getting easier all of the time. he last two nights have been pretty good- Alex has eaten at 9 or 10, then at 1 or 2, then 4 or 5, then 8 or so... he is eating more often before and after his afternoon nap, though, which is fine, but he keep falling asleep, so it's every hour for a couple few hours.. makes getting ready in the morning way harder.
He's asleep now, after being up all morning, like he was yesterday morning. It's different every couple of days, and I'm waiting for a little bit of a schedule to happen, but every time I figure it out he changes it:)

A Baby Story

it's on after What not to Wear. Everytime I hear the word c section or see hospital footage I breathe faster... I try not to watch it, but if I'm out of the room and it is after 10... ugh.

Adding on- babywearing

got the Moby to wrk- really hadn't been wanting to do much, so hadn't been wearing him. Should be napping, but at least he is sleeping well!
http://www.mobywrap.com/t-instructions-Hug.aspx
This is how I am wearing him... I tried the cradle thing a week or so ago, but couldn't get it to work. This is awesome.

it's amazing

what a little sleep and thai food can accomplish.
I survived 2 days without Eric, but next week there's five:( I think Grandma and I are going to hang out though- my parents are off to Vegas, so I will be essentially abandoned, although in theory I could use mom's car, but we'd need to move the base. Eric doesn't like driving Mom's car.
Eric's parents babysat last night so we could go out without Alex to Ben Jarong (yummy thai food) he ate two bottles in a row- I wonder if she thinks I'm starving him, lol. He kept them busy with diapers too- and we were only gone about 2 1/2 hours.
I keep finding uses for breastmilk- it's so entertaining. It's good for zits, and sunborns, even warts. Seriously. No, I haven't tried it on me yet, but Alex got a little where he was breaking out, and either that or the lotion did it.

First day alone

Can't drive, which I can't do anyway since Eric has the car... Mom working all day, Dad at a golf tournament, I am all alone with a 3 week old baby and a jealous chihuahua (she is not bad jealous, just neglected jealous. Don't worry, we snuggled.)
This morning was interesting- I'm thinking the hot chocolate makes him fussy- I guess I'll have to start brewing coffee or tea, I guess... I need something hot to drink.
But now he's his usual angelic self, so we're good. He really is a good baby, and I am completely blessed.
Yesterday we went to get a lump checked, turns out it was just because I carried him, and he has some estrogen going on, so he has a little right breast going on. He is now 10 lb, 8 oz. I've been so worried I was making enough for him... I guess I am! It's been really hard not knowing how much he's getting.
I'm still scared I'm going to fall apart inside- I've been sore for a few days since I picked him up in his carrier. Bigger nono than I thought (I thought it was a no, but Eric insisted the nurse said it was OK.
Still scared I'm bleeding internally somehow and going to fall apart.
*sigh* I don't like surgery.

emotionalness and a video of fussiness while asleep

Once you think you have it kicked, NOPE.
Teared up today because...
-scared Alex isn't getting enough food
- Eric is going back to work Thursday
- Grandpa died
- love my baby
-love Eric
- scared I'm bleeding internally

Crazy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dnpbAHXnIm8

two week checkup

Not officially cleared for driving, but the doc implied I should just abuse rides as much as possible (I mentioned my husband was going back to work Thursday). Said incision looks good. I sat in the office skared and stresed- I try to avoid thinking about it oo much, but I hurt from it so I get upset. It was too traumatic for me to forgive right now, even though I got my beautiful baby from it.
The next week scares me a little- Eric will be at work, and my parents will be gone to Vegas. I will be on the property all alone with newborn. I will be accepting visitors, lol- going to ask Grandma over probably and looking for another afternoon visitor (maybe to watch a movie) just so I don't feel totally alone. Having Alex all day can be wearing if I'm already tired, but he is a good kid and does nap (like he is doing right now.)

a day at a time...

Every day I'm learning more, able to handle more (Two hour crying fits? Suck.) Every day, I figure I'm getting better about my cesarean, and something else pops up.
I have some pain from the incision- yers, nerves were cut, that kind of thing. And it gets me angry. I wish I could let go of it, because that was what was best for Alex, but I can't yet. Give me more time, give me a belly without soreness and tape, and give me back the feeling in my tailbone area, and we'll talk (yes, part of my butt is still numb. I will be talking about it with my doctor Monday.)
Tonight will be an early bedtime... I'm struggling now, and it's 5:30.

I love to cook

Seriously. I think it's a family thing. I spent all afternoon working on dinner, s oI'd yummy snack options. And after this stuff cooks, I have chicken that needs to be cooked that will be shredded for- pot pie. I have to make at least one while Eric is home!
So i didn't get to rest, but mentally, I am in a happy place.
tonight's menu- three differnt kinds of sweet potato (courtesy of the local Montessouri high school, AKA "The Farm" that is selling their sweet potatoes) The regulr orange kind, one called "Oriental" and one called "New Jersey" (I think it's got a 'new' on there.) I think I like the New jersey better than the Oriental, which are white and supposably have a 'chestnut' flavor, the Jersey kind are yellow and sweet.
I totally recommend those- I cooked them with butter, brown sugar, a little water, ane cinnamon and nutmeg. I recommend stirring them part way through.
A little honey in the BBQ sauce for the chicken, and Grandma's cheesy rice recipe- yum!
I got my clothes tday, I think I am sending one shirt back, but I am waiting for buying a bra, which I will be doing tomorrow.
I got the biggest one I could find at Target, and it's a little small, but it's niec having another option. I juust can't wear it a lot because it could clog milk ducts (q risk on underwirebras) I figure I'll avoid them while home.
I got a couple things that are more comfort than style, at least right now- I have a little pot belly I am vain about, but hey- I just carried a baby 9 months and had major surgery. I'm giving my body 6 weeks before I worry about pot bellies- my weight is almost back to pre-pregnancy, but I am on worried about that right now either- I have to keep the calorie intake up for Alex right now. Lots of comfy clothes right now, but also stuff I feel OK in. Lots of black though, but everything looks good with black, right?

I only have a week

until Eric goes back to work. I was blessed to have him three weeks, if he had stayed on the original plan, he would have been back today...
I'm a little scared, I will have him all to myself all day Monday through Friday, on top of cooking dinner (cesarean says keep it on light side housework wise for 6 weeks... I'll let him continue to do the dishes, but I can help with laundry, I think. And some cleaning has GOT to get done.
I didn't do any today because I was upset again, first a botched doc's appointment this morning, the remembering "OH yeah, I can't wear my rings yet because I never found them."
That and napping with Eric and Daisy on the bed... baby starts fussing, who gets up? Mommy. Dog and Daddy slept through it. *sigh* Man's best friend my butt.
So Alex has been napping all afrernoon in his swing- I'm scared he has discovered it and decided it's more comfortable than a crib- he's just wanted to be held a lot the last couple days, which is fine. He wants to be held, we hold him. Sometimes we hold him when he's not even awake to enjoy it, but we do.
Breastfeeding is hard, but looking at him after eating makes me smile. It's a good feeling to be able to take care of his needs, and I'm glad he takes to a bottle so easy, Eric fed him this morning... I'm a little dependent of the bottles come Thanksgiving time- I think I can sneak away gracefully better at Grandma's than at Eric's parents' friends, so I will have to have a couple of bottles ready.
Yes, I've been concerned with Thanksgiving before Alex came, lol. We haven't done the two places in one day before, but I figured it was important to do... we're just going to do Carona first... I haven't asked her yet, but I think it will work. grandma's Thanksgiving starts at 1ish, so hopefully we can go to Johnny and June's for a couple of hours beforehand (not looking forward to it especially, but whatever.)

Alex and Daisy play

getting the hang of naps

out of sheer exhaustion. Seriously, what am I going to do when Eric isn't here? I hope by then I've got the energy... I think part of it is the physical demand of breastfeeding- I've never caught up to what I lost in the hospital, so I am trying to get up my calorie intake... my hunger signals still don't always work. Mostly i eat 2 lunches, but they tend to be smaller. I had snacks by the glider for night, but wasn't really eating them... need to get back to that and find good stuff 4 that ( it was stuff like carrot sticks).

Exhausted

of course, in love with my little man... but my arms are SO tired. My hands, thumbs, and wrists are hurting from holding his head as he nurses (we have a pillow system, complete with Boppy, but the rolled up towel the lactation consultant at the hospital also positioned him with is so often forgotten, I gave up on it.)
Daddy and Alex are watching Home Improvement...
Every day is a differnt day eating wise- he spent 2 doing about 2 hours a day between during the day, and 3 1/2 at night, and I was suprised and happy, cause I could deal with that. No, he didn't keep that- he know is cluster feeding, then eating every hour or hour and a half, then sleeping for 4. Of course, that happened in the middle of the day yesterday when Steph was here, so I couldn't abuse it for a nap.
I was so tired yesterday Eric brought him to me and we did the nursing in bed- worked just fine! He was really fussy for a couple of hours... turned out, I think it was all gas. He spit up on Eric, then me, then me a couple of hours later, and then a little more this morning. So I avoided my hot chocolate :( I don't know if it did that, but I'm waiting to see.
I know he's still new, so his tummy is still working itself out. He has slowed down on the poo machine- it was insane for a couple of days.
I'm having a little stress today and yesterday in the morning when I realize that I'm hungry, and that it's so early (lost out on daylight savings time) and my day of catering to a newborn is starting. My arms ache from gholding him feeding and otherwise (I'm going to have great biceps!) and other things are sore, too... but it shall pass.Thank goodness the hormones emotionalness is over- getting frustrated because it's 2 am and you're falling asleep feeding the baby and the burp cloth is just out of reach is annoying.
I did do some clothes shopping- Old Navy and Gap online. I have shopping online, but I needed a couple of nursing tops (still figuring out what wardrobe will work nursing, slowly putting all of the clothes together in one place.
I got not only nursing tops but also stuff that buttoned down, including a yellow striped henley that called my name (thanks for that and a dress, Cari!) I will eventually be a rockin' dressed mom, which is my goal :)

one week check-in

I finally got him in the swing so I can take my pain meds (Eric is off on errands). Oh goodness, the pain meds... my whole spine hurts. The swelling is waaay down today though.

My feet actually work today, although my ankles are still somewhat swollen.
Alex is being a really good kid. He eats anywhere from 1 1/2 to over 3 hours apart. He averaged 2 to 2 1/2 hours last night, but I am just so glad that he is healthy and gaining weight- the hospital was a disaster when it came to the first day,because he went quite a while without eating, but his blood sugar always tested well.

Have I ever mentioned breastfed babies make poo that looks like mustard? Good thing I already had an aversion to the stuff.

I've been splitting diaper duty with Eric during the day, and at night I get sole duty, along with, of course, all feedings. Working on getting a breast pump, hopefully Babies R Us will have it in stock tomorrow. That way, Eric can help with the duty, and we can have babysitting eventually. Otherwise, I have to make it back for the next feeding.

Sad thing is, even with all of the getting up and down a night (change, feed, burp, change again) I feel SO much better than I did in the hospital. Eric said I looked like a zombie or something, no sleep and stress will do that to you. And constant crying. Thank goodness that has already gotten waaay better too.

Poor Eric has had to deal with so much the last week- he was prepared for childbirth, but not the kinds of problems I ended up having. I'm really blessed he was able to be my rock the way he was- he came through in ways I wouldn't have imagined, and I bet suprised him. And he's so cute with his little man.

Daisy is having some jealousy problems, but some of it is also she wants to give the baby attention, so she is learning the boundaries. She is always concerned when he cries.

We're making sure to get her out of the house too, she's gone on a couple rides. We'll eventually put them both in the car and get fast food or something so she will feel special, but right now Eric just grabs her and runs somewhere.

I am so happy to

be home from the hospital.
be able to feed my baby.
have Eric home with me.
have a healthy baby.
have loving family and friends.
to have had the most sleep I've had in a week- because I'm home and not stuck in a hospital.

Woops, been a week

Yeah, the curtains still aren't done. Too hot to iron earlier, but everything is cut out.
So here I am a day overdue. Darn. I was really hpoing he'd come this weekend. Eric doesn't want to be antsy at work, I think he is dreading going tomorrow, poor guy. And everyone bugging him about where the baby is, I'm sure:)
Not that there isn't ANYTHING happening. I have had some contractions, and he is sitting heavier. It's just not consistent, and he is still sitting somewhat sideways. So he'll be late. Hopefully before Wednesday though, that's my new goal. I really don't want to talk induction, although he won't be considered late until next Saturday.
Tried making plans, tried going to a car show and walking around. His head was hitting my hip yesterday, I couldn't walk right, and was doing some kind of half waddle thing around.
So far, the contractions haven't ben bad, but last night they were more in my back- I hope the real thing isn't too much back labor, that would suck:(
I was getting them 10 minutes apart, about 30 seconds long, but only, like, 4 or 5 at a time, and they'd back off. Less frequent today, but a little stronger.
Keep 'em coming.
I've been concerned about him not being in the right position, since he is slightly sideways.
http://www.spinningbabies.com/baby-positions/all-positions/left-occiput-anterior
This says it's the best position there is. Well then, hurry up! I know I'm still in denial about becoming a MOM, but I'm still impatient.

Is it bad

when you're due in a week and the curtains are still not made in the nursery? However, we did find something that will suit as a suitcase and hung the pictures up.
And I packed my labor bag, minus iPod and speakers.

Going to Disneyland does not induce labor

Went to D-land for my birthday- got a fun card worth $72 (yippie) and then promptly spent it on nothing baby, bleah.

We did renew our passes- as did my mom, who offered to come babysit anytime we wanted a sitter when we went to Disneyland, as in, taking Alex to Disneyland and she'll hold him while we ride.:) We went and ate at Cafe Orleans, rode Jungle Cruise and It's a Small World (you get on anything else 38 1/2 weeks pregnant, lol). The fireworks were cool, for the most part- I really liked parts, and didn't care about other parts. But I was also tired.

Eric and I are getting bills paid off, yay! It's been so hard worrying about finances and, well, right now, we're going to be OK.

My list of stuff is still super long- after my doctor's appointment, I decided I needed to finish my labor bag. Well, I guess if I needed to run, it's got a lot on it, but I need to pull everything out so I can figure what I've put in it, haha. And then finish- everyone has been commenting on a 'focus' for labor. Well, my Glamour will, in theory, keep me occupied, either in labor or if I decide to read it sometime in the hospital. For an actual 'focus' I need something Alexander-y. Like, the outfit we'll be bringing him home in

I also have a change or two of clothes. I may want to get something else besides a gown on, I may not. Plus something to come home in. Plus shower stuff- I need to put the little point and shoot back in, I had it in and pulled it for a photo op. Plus extra batteries:)

Eric has a magazine, and I'm packing him some snacks- trying to get some stuff in there for me after labor as well snack-wise. Eric will be throwing pillows and blankets in a bag if I don't- he's probably crashing at the hospital and the bench for the daddy looks cold and uncomfortable :(

Today has been a grumpy day- had a nice time last night at one of my favorite restaraunts with Grandma, Eric and my parents, but then just couldn't sleep. And then was up early taking eric to work, and so on- I've been really lucky with everything, but I can't handle meltdown days. I can't control my feelings enough when I have them.

on grocery shopping and, well, all the other shopping

I am finally tired from my days of shopping. Thursday, I went to Inland Center, where I hit the Disney Store and picked up a Cars book (aged 18 months plus, but Eric adores pushing the noise buttons) and a necklace for me for my birthday:)
I also hit Target, got a nursing tank (looking for clothing options for the hospital and going home, I refuse to assume I will be in a gown the entire time) a pair of heart-shaped glasses, a couple of small toiletries for the hospital in case I shower or whatever...
I am trying to get my bag packed in the next couple of days, last weekend I said I wanted it done this week:) The car set is in, just have to get it checked. Still haven't made curtains *avoids Eric, who wants curtains* I need to finish the blinds first. Yep, still haven't adjusted the blinds.
Yesterday I went 'shopping' with Grandma. I honestly didn't assume she'd buy me anything, although knowing Grandma I knew she would... I just wanted to have a baby shopping day with her, and had waited months, literally.
We went to Babies R Us and Kissui, with a quick stop at Kohl's to try to return something. Got a couple of outfits and awe'd a lot of things at BRU, at Kissui the owner ended up giving a mini lesson on a Moby wrap.
http://www.mobywrap.com/
Pretty much, a long piece of material you wrap around yourself and stick the kid in. Eric and I had registered for a carrier, and decided it was a bit expensive to get, so we re-researched. This was $40, and you can wear it when they are very small. Yay! Grandma also bought us our Diaper Dude diaper bag, and a pack of the Peepee Teepees (which should be entertaining to try out.) Grandma thought they were a genius idea.
She then realized she had not bought me a birthday present- ah, well, that is the life right now., I expected baby presents for my birthday and are OK with it- I'll celebrate the big 31 next year better.

Poop, I'm unmotivated... have a video

People keep asking me if I'm ready for Alex to show up. Well, if he came home today, he'd have everything he needs.
It's like asking "Are you excited?" I really want to answer 'no'.
It's just my nature to be calm about some stuff- sure, Eric and I are excited, but we're not staring it my belly in anticipation (by the way, he is not 'engaged', meaning he has not finish assuming the position, so it's obviously not tomorrow. An I start the checking for dialation next week, oh yaaaayy...)
But fiunally, finally, I am dragging my grandmother around baby 'looking'. I'm honestly not asking for anyone to buy stuff, but I want to do the baby 'shopping' thing, like what us three amigos were doing for a while. Mom has been too busy, and I never pulled it off with grandma, so now I'm doing it with grandma. Babies R Us, Kissui, and whatever else we decide to do. I'll have to money to get a monitor, Eric picked out one, we'll see if they have it or if I have to get another one. We're getting a video one- Eric is insistant he can look to see what the baby is doing while out in the garage, lol. But it will be useful when he's older, can see if hes trying to climb out of the crib or something.
This is what happens when you read Daisy a baby book with a nice fuzzy spot on it...




Video- Belly movement (this is a couple of weeks old, lol. It's either feet or him shaking his butt:)

trying to get stuff done

since I still have to clean, gets some food prepared for when Alex gets home and pack a bag for the hospital...

I'm kind of hoping I can get stuff done by Sunday. Right now I'm behind, wanted stuff done by 36 weeks, but had no energy and procrastinated.

Right now I'm listening to my labor list- it's Colbie Callet and Jack Johnson. I need to find more, since I ony have one CD of them each. I have a couple of Mandy Moore's which are mellower, but just don't seem to sound right.

I'm going to call Grandma and ask to borrow Hawaiian music CD's or a couple of days so I can put them on my ipod- I think that will work too. I just one play list that will work for a while, I'm not restricting the music played at all.

Hospital bag has a pair of pants (I grabbed a pair of black xl ones from target, since who knows how big my belly will be afterwards) and I will be putting in my nursing bra or a tank if I buy one, and a t shirt. Pretty much what I will wear home, maybe another pair of pants if I start wearing stuff in the hospital. I want that option, whether or not I wear the gown while I'm there. Outfit for Alex, it's adorable. Travel toiletries stolen from a hotel, hairbrush with a hair tie attached. I also have random paperwork that I thought may be important to have in the hospital, and our little point and shoot is freshly battery'd and in there as well.

At the end of the week my ipod player and ipod will go in there, as well as my tiger, if I can find it (been hearing about having something to focus on, it's either that or Alex's outfit, screw the Hawaii picture or something, won't be going there anytime soon). The nursing pillow will also go in car.

I'm so excited to think that by Thanksgiving I could go shopping- I'm already considering a striped sweater I saw at Target (there's a striped multicolored one selling there eight now- yeah, like it;'s ever cold enough, but I think it's beautiful) and shiny zebra-striped ballet flats.

I already did a little- poor Eric watched me pick out tights. No idea if they will fit post baby, but someone had to buy the cool leopard print ones I saw at Kmart.

One thing I will be considering in the ext week or so is looking for some on-sale button up shirts- I only have work ones, and I need a couple of options to wear while nursing. I'm also considering ordering a couple of nursing tops from Old Navy.

Old Navy is also holding a sweater sale- I'm considering trying to kidnap my mom to go out to Victoria Gardens (I think she has to work, boo) and swinging by the sweater sale and picking up one of the cardi-coats.




but I bet by then there will be no more, lol.

the only problem with pregnancy message boards

is reading what can go wrong. I visit the bump.com message boards almost daily, and in the last two weeks there has been two babies that strangled on their umbilical cords and today a lady in the Inland Empire died after delivering her baby.
However, it really doesn't freak me out to read those. Why? I figure nothing will happen to me. It drives me nuts when Eric's mom dwells on the NICU (where a friend's granddaughter is for a while) because I feel certain my baby will not end up there.
I also am not worried about anything like emergency c-section, etc.
I am freaked out about the pain, since I really don't understand what childbirth feels like, but I really am not worried at all about complications.
One of the reasons why I visit the boards and read other people's problems is that way I can see what happens.
If not, my mind would go crazy worrying about how much Alex moves, if I'm doing this right, etc.
Because my pregnancy is different than everyone else's- they are all different. As will my birth experience and how Alex acts after he is born... he could be quiet and mellow, he could be a pain in the butt! And the only way to learn how to deal with him is get to know him and what he wants, not just follow what other people say.

on advice and telling people how to raise their kids

One of the things that can be hardest to catch about me, because I try to not show it much, is how badly I can take unsolicited advice. I have been thankful that in this pregnancy that I haven't gotten a lot- I was trying to be prepared for it from random strangers and everything.
I have talked to my mom some about her with Patrick and I, but not a lot to Eric's mom- we talked formula once, but that was when they told you Karo syrup, condensed milk, and water would do it ;)
I found a small Fisher price ad-filled magazine at my OB's office that was for grandparents- I took two and gave one to my mom, and to Erics mom. I am not sure if Eric's mom has read hers. I told both they looked like a couple of interesting articles and a bunch of ads for cute stuff that could be a waste of money (seriously, some of the toys... a tv-interactive rocking horse? Really?)
But I knew that I wanted both of them to read an article that talked about how baby-raising is different now than what the 'rules' were when I was born.
Mom felt kind of bad after the article- she had not raised us according to many of the topics- I was a back baby, and we were not reared 'on a schedule'. I figured that was fine, because she tried to raise us listening to what we wanted, which is what Eric and I will be trying to do -feed on demand (I will have no real sleep for a couple of weeks, as feedings will take up 8 hours of the day alone, just naps) and trying to figure out what Alex wants when he cries.
Eric's mom, who had asked how I was planning on feeding (very quietly in a crowded restaurant, teehee) has been throwing advice on putting cereal in the bottle the first weeks because it helps baby feel full longer. Well, the class instructor talked about why that is- babies cannot digest it that early in life, and so it keeps them from being able to take in nourishing foods that they need.
I plan on breastfeeding exclusively for as long as I can- I don't even have plans to buy a pump yet, although when I'm established in a feeding routine I know I will want one. I have faith that my body will make what he needs, and when he and I have it figured out, I will be cluster feeding (feeding him often in a shorter period) so I can get a little bit longer sleep. This will be interesting- no one in my family breast fed, and Eric's mom didn't either.
I'm waiting for the advice to come flying out when Alex comes, and I will try to be as patient as I can, but if I am as sleep deprived and cranky as I think I may be, hopefully I won't be too rude to someone if they keep throwing advice at me when I don't need it.
Eric and I have never done this before, and since there have not been many babies in our families in a while (the last one in mine was my brother!) I did some book reading and have been trying to learn all I can, from our pediatrician, the class instructor, etc. I know people think that I feel unknowledged about babies, because I've rarely even held one, but between the childbirth class and a couple of the books I read, I feel a lot better.
I think everyone feels unknowledged about their first baby.
My problem is, I talked about my uncertainty, and now I'm sure people will want to swoop in to teach me everything, when I've spent the last few months trying to prepare myself as much as possible- learning about breastfeeding, vaccinations, reading posts on message boards and reading up on topics as they came up there.
I feel a lot more secure. Overwhelmed? Yes. But more secure that I won't kill the baby.

doctor's appointment

So this was the first of my once a week appointments- I'm taking Eric with me next week, and then I will have 2 where they check dilation.
I am a little scared of having a full moon baby- my birthday is 2 days after that. I don't think my doc is though:) I asked a couple questions childbirth class had brought up, and he is going to call the instructor about one that I asked, because he said you should ALWAYS be monitored, and she said we needed to ask our doctors for their preference.
I also had started a birth plan- nope, he just wants the checklist done. Well, I'll make a checklist, and add on a couple things on the bottom- my laid back doctor was very stern and business today, I got frustrated.
Not that anything on my birth plan is super important, the biggest ones is the fact that I want to breastfeed, so no pacifiers or bottles given by the nursery, and that I am definitely considering an epidural :)
The epidural- the childbirth instructor mentioned there is a 'light' one, so you have more feeling, but not as much pain. I am considering that option, at least for part of it- epidurals can., I guess, slow labor down, and since I react to meds stronger than some people, I don't want to overdose too quickly- I can always get it upped.
Little less stressed about the whole labor thing- part of it is knowing Eric will be there for me, yet I know he's nervous too. I was scared to be the only scared one- it's not like I have a choice, kind of have to go through with it:)
Did some online shopping today- although I will be waiting until tomorrow to actually buy stuff- looking for nursing gear. I want to get something that is appropriate for the hospital as an option, or right after- like pyjamas that button up the front. So tomorrow, after I get a little money, I plan on hitting up Target and checking out to see if they have a maternity shirt or pj set that will work. Also, some black yoga pants, because I own- none.

Wow, I can get tired easily

Yesterday was a full, but slow day- yoga (where I wimped out on our 'keep up' exercise so I wouldn't get tired later) and then go home, clean up, lunch with Sharon and Denise (tea house, yummy and interesting) then cupcakes from Dough'lectibles (I cheated) and we sat in the mall (where there is no more Hot Dog on a Stick)
The mall was barely air conditioned, at least half empty (we're talking stores, not people- there weren't any) and yet the escalator was running. Random.
So I got overtired and hot, and didn't realize it for a while- so I spent last night not feeling good and chugging water. And this morning drinking water and juice and being grumpy- my back also hurt last night. It has been, though- I think I'm just at that point in my pregnancy, I know he has scooted down some- it's hard to lean forward. In fact, sometimes impossible:) At least I can breathe deep- which I have to do more often.
I'm always scared to complain, because I've had it really easy this pregnancy- I can still pull off an 8-hour night, it's just pretty rare now that I don't get up and have to pee or can't get comfortable.

Some videos

So my video editing program still hates me, so I havent made a conclusive video as of yet. here are two vids to tide people over. (sorry Cari, love the 'interview' lol.)

my childborth class grew last week

We now have a pair of annoying kids in it. I'm assuming they're, like, early 20's, but the commentary, and the attitude, and the way she waddles (she is not far enough along to waddle that much, leaning back- she's going to jack up her back that way)
Isn't is sad I'm a little bitter? But the rest of the class is taking it seriously, and they're dumb q's and comments all over.
Last week we got half of the hospital tour, too many babies being born downstairs.
We also learned about breathing techniques and pain relieving techniques for mom to do with dad... my favorite is when I'm sitting up, and Eric pushes right under my knees.. a couple of them I wasn't sure what they were supposed to do, but that one works! Hand massages are also supposed to be good... I'll be all over those in a minute.
Too bad I could never talk him into foot rubs...
And of course, we got handed a grip of paperwork. Egad. A lot of it was OK's to give out information to doctor, etc. Nothing bad, just a lot of signatures.
The hospital tour part we got was a recovery room. Eric gets a nice padded bench to sleep on, if he wishes (we're recommended to bring pillows and stuff, cause the hospital bed has one little one.
Dinner hours are flexible but still atrocious, so she recommended have family bring in food after delivery so we can eat when we want, pack snacks, and feel free to order pizza (Domino's is not the only delivery that goes there.)
I will have snacks in the bag for Eric anyway, and a box of popsicles for me! I get to have popsicles and ice chips during labor... I'm grateful for the popsicles.

Not a lot of progress

in anything. Baby's room even isn't inished being organized, even though everything got washed, like, Monday and Tuesday.
Can't put up a video from the shower, Movie Maker hates me and won't let me trim off the front of a clip. So I may end up with some long pieces of video Youtube'd randomly:)
I have ben so tired the last few days- thought it was a growth spurt, but it just doesn't stop. I have stuff I need to get done that got derailed for a couple of weeks, now that I can get back into it I'm on the couch after lunch for half the afternoon.
Eric's mom made our mobile! I'll put pics up when stuff is more put away, all it is right now is a pile of blankets everywhere and gift bags still hanging around.
*goes back to relaxing on the couch* Bleah.

baby shower pics

baby showerness

It was a lot of fun! Presents took a long time to do, but it was a blessing to get so many gifts for Alex!
We did the measure around the belly thing, but it was both mine and Eric's bellies together- that was funny :)
We got a lot of styling clothes that will be good in the spring and summer, and a few for now, so I do get to do a little baby shopping:)
We went yesterday and today to Target and Babies R Us, and got the stuff we needed to finish the necessities- a diaper pail, a diaper stuff organizer, mattress pad.... and a going-home outfit with bear stuff on it! So cute!

childbirth class

So Eric and I had our first class last night...
We talked about how pregancy affects the body, what changes, etc.
We split into groups of boys and girls and made a list of pregnancy 'discomforts'. That was pretty funny... the boys had a list very comparable for the girls', but also included entries like ' avoiding cleaning house' 'lazy' and 'waddling' (Eric offered up one of those, we'll let you guess which:)
The nurse leading the class wasn't the happiest about the' avoiding cleaning' and 'lazy', because, well, pergnant women get tired easy, and shouldn't be breathing in a lot of cleaning products (OK, Eric didn't offer either of those). I figure it's the guy not being able to express exactly what they meant- one guy supposeably wasn't comtributing much because he didn'ty want to get in trouble with his girl:)
It was fun comparing some notes with other moms, but, again, I have a confirmed easy pregnancy... the teacher was impressed I can get 8 hours of sleep (it's a can, not always do... there is a difference:)
We watched a couple of videos. One was the labor process for the baby, graphic animation style. The other was the stages of labor. I think Eric is even more scared or has even more respect for me delivering a baby... but frankly, I am now alittle scared after seeing more than once exactly what all stretches how much, and how long all of the different stages of labor can take (there's the part you can do at home, then the more active stuff you do in the hospital- then delivering the baby, then delivering the placenta.
But yes a little anxious now. It's not fun.

leftover veggies rock

The last few days have been crazy- fast food on the way home, etc. I've not been in the mood to cook a couple times.
Last Saturday Mom and I went to the new farmer's market - I think it's all organic produce, I forget. Very low-key. I picked up some okra and some radishes.
I had totally forgotten about the veggies this week. I pulled out the plastic bag they were all on- they all still look good. YAY :)
I'll probably cut the radishes and some carrots and snap peas to make a snack plate for me (and whoever wants some) but the okra is more than a challenge. The one other time I've cooked okra is when I battered and fried it- yummy, but I don't want to burn myself that much again- oil spatters suck. I'm trying to find my southern-style cookbook to see what else they do with it. I don't want to steam it- if you overcook okra, it gets a gross texture. In my perfect world, I will bread them and bake them, which is still high on my list.
I am looking forward to next weekend- unfortunately, people are starting to have problems getting out of work. One person had to back out already, and another one is scared they will be rescheduled. I will pull the pregnant card and go make a scene in the store to help avoid that happening.
Until then, baby stuff is pretty slow- I decided I want to crochet more baby hats, epecially girly ones for gifts, and I need to preregister for the hospital, but that's ajust a matter of pulling out the paperwork and finishing it.
Daisy and I were relaxing on the bed this morning, and Alex decided to poke Daisy. She doesn't really react to it, which i think is cute- she already likes him, hopefully:)

Well, I had energy

My energy spurt left. Probably because I can't handle that I cleaned so much yet my rings are still missing *tear*
Please come back to me rings!

Yeah, so Eric and I decided not to circumcise. I think I'm the only person I know to make that decision, seems like everyone's doing it. I actually had a couple of people concerned, like, the kind of well-ask-the-doc-for-an-opinion kind.
They are made with them, so why not keep 'em?
I mean, I don't think badly on anyone making that decision, cause obviously I don't want anyone telling me what to do. It's just not my thing.

Breastfeeding class

So we actually made it to a class- a breasfeeding class at Loma Linda.
Eric wasn't really given a choice, but complained minimally about going anyway. He found it educational and disturbing at the same time, lol.
The worst part was the video- lots of boobs- big ones, with big nipples. and one chick had enormous stretch marks... I don't think Eric will look at boobies the same way, lol.
But he listened, and wrote a few notes- I had brought a notebook so he could doodle.
it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but I only feel a little bit more prepared to try to breastfeed- but the ladies that ran the class did say you have to do it to learn it. Besides, the baby doll was hard to position.

A Baby Story

So I watch them from time to time- I refuse to watch one with problems, because I don't want to worry about those problems, lol.
I tend to avoid totally natural births that are not a water birth, because they tend to scream, ugh.
I have to write my birth plan- pretty much, what I want to happen at the hospital. Hopefully I can get it together before my next appointment, so then I can discuss what is feasable and what isn't. Most of my stuff is about not instantly being bombarded with family immediately after, and then I have concerns about baby shots in the hospital. Between the meeting with the pedi this week and the breastfeeding class, I think I'll have enough info to answer that question.
Yep, picked a pedi. So far. We're meeting her Thursday.
About circumsicion- yeah, we don't plan on it. I'm suprised how many people have been pro- I never really talked about it, so I didn't know who all in my life had been snipped.
Crazy. But seriously, you don't snip anything on a girl, why on a boy? Poeple were made the way they were for reasons.

9 more weeks

9 more weeks until I'm a mom. A MOM. And I will always be a mom after that.
it's crazy to have that thought in my head.
There will be a little someone that looks like Eric and I running around. I will be feeding him and changing him and reading and signing and playing with him.
As he gets older, Eric will teach him all about cars, how to stand up for himself in a fight, throw a ball, and everything else a boy needs.
*sigh* It can be overwhelming.
David went with me last night to see Pirates of Penzance at the redlands Bowl. Lol, Eric is out of town, but he probably wouldn't have gone anyway... artsy stuff isn't his thing. So Mommy will be taking him places with Uncle David to get his culture, lol. We already decided. It's amazing how alike David and I can be with our taste in odd stuff.
Idid not pack light for the Bowl- blanket and a pillow, food, binoculars. We sat in the second to last row and had a blast- made friends with the girl our age a row ahead of us that gave David wine. :) I am so used to the movie version- this was the forst time I had seen it actually performed. We both got unreasonably excited when our favorite songs came on- David sang along to the Major General song.

Nursery so far

Target registry

I knew there was a chance I'd have to do this, but I'm still pouting- someone the stuff on my Target registry disappeared. Well, a couple went online only, and a couple are onw not in my Target store, so I'm assuming they aren't local. Bleah. So i have to go online and change it up, because I know everyone will be buying in store.
My biggest sad is all of the ducky bathtowel and stuff I marked- it's not there anymore. *sniff* Good thing Carters has ducky stuff- I think Babies R Us may have it, but I definitely know Macy's does ;)

busy past couple of days

Thursday, went to Disneyland with Denise, Sharon and my mommy.
I didn't go on half the rides they went on, lol. I stood in line with them for Space (imagining that someone would get after me for riding it pregnant) Otherwise, I was sitting- we implimented fastpass usage a decent amount. I was suprised how many people were there, yet the longest line was like 45 minutes.
Then yeterday, I did my yoga and then painted the nursery with Denise. We got brown in some places it didn't need to be, but Eric said he'd fix it. Then Eric's last night of bowling... he's going to Laughlin next week with the team., leaving me to get to take David as a date for Pirates (awww.. it'll be fun!)
So today was supposed to be quiet day. Instead, one of Eric's long lost buddies shows up to my neglected house and we go to go see David (preplanned) and have a party tonight to attend for a while.
I'll rest more tomorrow.

today is baby shopping

OK, so I'm still surfing and staring at clothes. I can't help it, back to school time does it for me:)

But today will be baby stuff... briought to you by Etsy!

koolkidz

funkymonkeythreads

Citefuzz

I need to crochet one...
Boston Beanies

dressing like a mom

I mean, now will being a mom affect my look? I've been slowly maturing it- I'm such a jean and tees girl.

In a perfect world, I will be What Not To Wear'd with my change- wear dresses, ballerina flats, add more jewelry, etc. I already have been trying to get that way, but I have hangups with stuff like my bust (and breastfeeding will NOT make that any easier)

Mental shopping today- I promised myself no new clothes until after the baby- who knows what size I'll end up:) I'm good on maternity clothes anyway.

We will see...

(Clothing items brought to you by Glamour magazine, Ann Taylor Loft, and Gap)

Redskins gear and stuff

I have a handful of material to make baby stuff for Eric- Redskins logo. I have to steal back the pattern from mom to make the stuff- bib, burp cloth, etc. it's also a pattern for a diaper bag, but I don't think Eric wantes a whole diaper bag yet. I also have fleece for a blankie, but need to get some more for the back, I want to make him a tie one (if I ever get around to it, the goal is the baby shower)
I keep looking on redskins.com for baby stuff, but they all suck. Luckily, babyfans.com has a slightly better selection, but still not a lot of stuff. he wants a Cars mobile (which we'd have to invent)- I'm suprised he hasn't wanted a Redskins piggy mobile... :)
Disneystore.com has a lot more baby stuff now... there is some cute stuff now.

Third trimester woes already starting

I've always been worried about my back during my pregnancy, cause it's a little messed. Yeah, it's starting to show. I don't go to the chairopractor until next Wednesday, so I'm goingto try to take it a little easy, but I have a lot of stuff I want to do today.
The nursery walls are primered, and a patch of color on to make sure it was what we wanted. I grabbed eggshell... we never talked finish. I guess that was right... I don't know. I just remembered we'd used it before has a finish. well, one reason why to get just a quart to try. The nursery will be in a light warm beige color, and then the cherry furniture and Cars and blues. It'll be cute, and personal.

Fell on my butt

So Patrick was taking a quick break from starting the primering along with Eric. I was sitting on my little heart stool, and started to get up. Well, my legs were tired, and I just didn't lean far enough forward. Fell over the stool and onto my butt. Patrick had to help me up.
Lesson of the day- don't plop down n the heart stool, because I won't be able to get up.

wiggle wiggle

So I had always looked forward to feeling kicks. When I got them, I was excited to get them, cause they mostly came first thing in the morning or when I went to bed.
Today, I had them almost all day. I enjoyed it, except for when I wanted to lie down and he kept kicking up by my ribs (with my long torso, he is just now making it up that direction.) So that part was annoying, yet looking back on it, I still was happy, because he more wiggles I get, the calmer I feel. He has been such a quiet baby...
I am behind on presents still, but won't be for long. Steph is done! The big project took forever, because of the pattern alterations... it's the biggest thing I've ever crocheted.
I need to make a couple hats or something for my next person, and work on ones for my own son!
I'm being bad and not even looking for registry stuff, because I am poor- mostly crocheting and finding clothes.

must aspire to sound smarter

Went down to San Diego with the rents to go to the ESRI convention party... yeah. I am sad and don't have much to talk about exccept baby stuff, the dog, and baby shower stuff (of which there is very little to talk about, since I'm not planning it, lol.
Yeah. I stay out of political discussions, because either they vary way more than mine and are not gonna back down from sounding 100 percent right, or I'm not confident enough to argue. Bleah. It sucks liking something no one else is right now (Obama-ness)
But seriously, right now my life is full of babyness... research about baby stuff, so I can register for stuff I'll actually like, and research about breastfeeding, and I had to learn about classes... ugh. At least most is done. Good thing I can't afford to babyshop much.
I did get a couple packages of Babylegs from babysteals.com for cheap... that will have to be my last one for a while. But I really admire them.
Another reason my lack of current eventage sucks (besides True Blood :) is it makes me feel like a dork. Right now, between my lack of focus due to pregnancy (the ditzyness really is due to 'pregnancy brain' and the lack of seeing a lot of people on a daily basis means I am losing my communication skills. Bleah.

ouchies

I've had growing pains and fatigue the last couple of days... I'm kind of getting to the point where I look at the bump on my belly and can't imagine 13 more weeks of growth on it... I'm doomed...

Crib ordered!

And Babies R Us is having a half off mattress deal with the cribs, so we ordered the mattress too.
I feel so relieved, because the first one we liked, was discontinued. So now I have this one set. Now we just need to order the furniture, but the room needs to be painted first.