On friends and the poor daddy to be

So my group of friends has grown smaller over the years. I kow it's not all me. I'm sure some of it is. But I never seem to really make more to replace the ones I lost. I now have no contact with anyone I was friends with through guard (and I mean friends, my my friends, not people like Strickland that I really met through Eric.)
No reason to go to HS reunions.
And I keep thinking about it, even though I don't want to , cause stuff gets brought up.
When I got pregnant? I thought about karen, who I was attached to at her baby shower, we were each other married friends.
The one who got divorced, happened to run into with her man, who is the afther of the twins, never was invited to the shower, and just found out she married him last weekend.
I was considering emailing her I was pregnant, we had always joked Alicia would babysit my kids.
Yeah.
Nevermind. She wrote me out of her life easier than I wrote her.
I really liked a couple wives of Eric's co-workers that I've met, and really hope eventually we'll establish friendships. One couple is moving really close to us. We got along great at Twila's baby shower, but that was it, we wen't invited to stuff they were, etc. But Eric's co-worker was at a party, and I aleways get along with him (he thinks beer is stupid too, YAY! Which is amusing to hear from an ex-Marine) And a couple couples already have small children or are thinking that way, so eventually we will have more in common with some.

Poor Eric, he was singing along with Kenny CHesney's "There goes my life" and I had to turn it off, it made me hysterical. Here are the lyrics that killed it for me.

All he could think about was I'm too young for this

Got my whole life ahead hell I'm just a kid myself how I'm gonna raise one

All he could see were his dreams going up in smoke

So much for ditching this town and hanging out on the coast

Oh well, those plans are long gone And he said

there goes my life there goes my future, my everything might as well kiss it all good-byethere goes my life.......

Ok, so it got better, as all country songs do, but to hear Eric sing along along with those words just freaked me out.

I'm glad he doesn't really feel that way, at least not much, he had to tell me that before I could stop crying. In the car. On the way to dinner with family.

it all goes back to the shocked look on his face and overwhelmedness at hearing he was going to be a daddy. Since it's so early, we don't really talk a lot about the baby, so I had to get assured he was excited. Poor Eric.

Ugh. Stupid country songs.

I'm sure somethig will be blamed on pregnancy hormones.